an english student who hates reading

I touched on this topic a little bit in my ‘first year of uni’ post, but I decided I wanted to go into a bit more detail. Don’t worry, I’ll keep it short and sweet. All my teachers used to say, “study what you’re passionate about” but I’ve never really felt that passionately about any of my subjects. I love art, but doing the IB for 2 years and having to justify and explain every single thing I did — what I included, who I was influenced by, blah blah blah — it ruined what I enjoyed about art. I used to like just doodling and painting, but after all of that bs, I just didn’t think I could continue like that, especially since I’d probably be doing the same if I did a degree in it. 

My “best” subject at school was English, but not because I’m a bookworm. I’m actually entirely the opposite of that stereotype. I hate reading, I’m really bad at it, to the point where I keep telling myself to get checked out for dyslexia, and I get bored really easily. I find reading an absolute draaaag, and I do as little of it as possible, which is basically nothing lol. My books for first year were on the whole a complete waste of money sadly. I’m also awful at spelling and my vocabulary is embarrassing, so you know, that’s great. It’s also quite frustrating that I know that a lot of the other English students absolutely love reading and are truly passionate about it, which is cool, good on you, but that’s just not me, and because of that I don’t really feel like I fit in with many of them. 

But anyway, what I do really like is writing essays, and I was pretty good at it. There are times that I absolutely hate it, especially at uni because they give us absolutely horrendous questions. But when I have questions that I’m really into, then I find writing essays pretty fun. People will probably think, “wow that’s stupid” after reading that I enjoy writing essays, but like my boyfriend says, I “have a way with words”, and there’s something quite fulfilling about rounding up an essay with a bomb ass conclusion and looking back and thinking damn, I argued that well. 

So yeah, as you can tell, I study English at uni, and essays are a big part of the work we do, in fact that’s all my coursework and exams are made up of. I’ve had a love hate relationship with it, but I think that’s mostly because I’ve hated almost all, if not all, of the questions that I had to write about. Hopefully next year I’ll enjoy them more because I’ll actually be studying stuff that I enjoy, stuff that’s similar to what I studied at school. So here’s hoping…

Till next time,

Nicole

xoxo